some more creativity from the world citizens

Man, what's watching vids' all about if there's no funny clips?



Point to note:
There's always someone who's absolutely way out of the scale in everything
including Super Mario Bros
the game is completed in 5++mins
I spent more than 1yr still not completed (>.<)!!!

Well, that's all folks. you can watch the rest from the actual site itself :)

More creativity from the world

T h e g r a c e f u l n e s s i n c r u t c h e s

The talented drummer

Extreme of mankind

Creativity of the world

hmmm, i've basically spent the whole day surfing the net watching... videos. dang! it was so much fun watching and marvel at the imagination of the world. It broadens my perspective on how many thousands of angles we can actually look at an object, scenario or situation.

i've always wondered why do i have sooo damn many sites and things to do on the net at home but when i'm at work, i do not know wat or which site to surf. one of the lingering mysteries of all time...

and now, check out a few of the video links from collegehumour.com which kept me away from my studies today :)

dang, i love this advertisment!!!

This is Sony... Like.No.Other.

sweetness in life!

weird day today,

woke up at 815am and it was raining heavily. couldn't get a cab so i ended up taking a bus. best of all, i'm suppose to start work at 8am yet i'm taking my time. hahaha. got myself some coffee on the way and reached the office at 935am. didn't even know what i did and it's time for lunch. spend the lunch time surfing the net and our whole department left for cohesion at 2pm. came back home to change, had a quick lunch at macdonalds and off we go. reached the karaoke at 4pm and we sang and teased each other.

i'm home by 730pm.

looking for things to do so i pack up my room, back up my hard drive as it's giving me the "high- pitch-that-i'm-gonna-kaput-soon" noise.

and then i found this song which i've listened from 9pm till now.

got my spirit so high that i gotta shout to the world

Woooooaaaaaahhhhhh!

from the self titled album

"Jimmy Eat World"

here's

"Sweetness"

check out the video from
Youtube

"I was spinning free, woahhh...

With a little sweet and simple numbing me"

８月２８日２００７年 － 新しい初め

８月２８日２００７年

my immediate superior asked me whether i'm gonna continue my contract as the management is holding a meeting today to discuss the advancement plan. I told him no and out of his good intentions, he refer me to another senior colleague of mine to seek advice. we talk in length and he said e branch head will be the more suitable person to discuss the terms of the second contract. some how, the br head n i ended up talking about why i wanna leave instead and then it's no turning back.

what started as a normal day having coffee n breakfast at 9am at a coffeeshop ends up wif a storm, initially, i've decided to inform them later this year but somehow, i've already "showed hand". suddenly, alot ppl are curious as another colleague of mine is also not continuing. i ended up going for lots of interviews and they somehow portray that other companies as not as forgiving, more intense n lesser advancement. there are times where i felt like a made a wrong choice after all the persuasion with the good pay n a comfy life. my contract still has a yr n half to go, i know that i'll be placed in the bottom of the appraisal to save the rest who stayed and my bonus gone.

the aftermath was weird. i felt like i'm going thru a divorce proceeding and the following 1.5 yrs is like the waiting period to be officially certified that you are. after being in my job for so long, it had as if became my wife and due to some irreconcilable differences, we're gonna part. some part of me felt insecure, worrying about the world. felt like there's so much factors going against me.

yet some part of me knows that i've made the right choice. the thought of me at 50yrs old still doing the same thing scares me. I look at my seniors and I felt ashamed that they are under-appreciated wif the amount of experience and knowledge they have. e company does not really reward ppl wif passion and drive and I would have felt like i've wasted my life away when there's so much more to experience. most importantly, in short, i wouldn't know how far i could go or how high i can climb. i would live a life of regrets.

i want to be free.

i want to be able to make choices while i'm still free of liabilities. with my bridges burned, there's only one way to go now and it's forward. no turning back and of course, no regrets.


９月８日２００７年

today, i felt so much happier. i know i've made the right choice. with the burden off my shoulders, i felt more passionate about life as there's something to look forward to. life has more meaning and the drive that i've lost came back to me. felt there's so much possibilities. currently studying japanese and i hope i can pass my jlpt 3 this year and jlpt 2 next year. i guess we shouldn't be too afraid to live and trod a different path. what matters most is that we have no regrets.

神様を信じて、明日はよかったでしょう。

"there's a reason why our eyes are grown infront of our face and not at the back of our head.
cause there's no point looking back..."

The sweetness in bitterness of life

Nope, dun get me wrong. I ain't bitter about my life. It's just the food that I'm eating/drinking that sets me thinking.

Well, every weekend, my parents and I will go to the yishun YaKun for breakfast or coffee. Maybe it's the coffee experience that I have while I was in Hanoi that I slowly appreciate the bitterness of coffee. The more I drink, the lesser sugar I'm putting. From Kopi "xiudai" to now Kopi "si". Some how, I like my coffee with milk but no sugar aka latte. I know it's not true blue expresso or kopi "kosong" but I'm getting there. Now, I can taste the aroma of the beans though I still can't differentiate them but I'm getting there too.

The same goes to chocolate. From the supermarket's cadbury milk chockies to Meiji/Morinaga's bitter chockies to slowly increasing the percentage of the cocoa content. Now, I dun eat milk chockies anymore. The minimun is bitter chockies. from 72% to 86% now.

Like coffee, I started to taste the sweetness in the bitterness of chockies/coffee. The sweetness in the after taste or when u breathe in the aroma. The aunties at the YaKun thinks that the "xiudai's" for my dad and they are surprised that a young guy like me likes it to be bitter.

I think the coffee that I drank in Hanoi really changed my tastebud. The aroma and the after taste... still cannot forget my first Kopi Kosong.

Concurrently, I think my view of life have slowly changing. I felt more at peace with myself and though the angst still surfaces with my inability to change a situation. I felt more optimistic and cheerful. Seeing the sweetness in the bitterness of situations that life sometimes brings. I hope to increase to a higher level, short of gaining nirvana, the ability to smile in the face of adversity. Thou the word adversity is abit too bombastic, I think the word setback will be more appropriate. Like all, after many setbacks in life, I just hope that I can just shrug it off and move on...

Smile, heads up, wind in my face, what the hell, let's go!

頑張って！行きましょ！

It's Good to be Back!

After spending a month hopeless and lost ever since I came back from Hanoi, it's good to be back from the wilderness.

I guess that we all suffers from hopelessness some point in our life. Wondering, are the things that we do, the path that we took was the right one. The "what ifs" keeps appearing in our mind. Sometimes we suffer from burn out from work, the daily mindless trudging in our life makes us ponder "what the hell am I doing?", we tend to lose the big picture - our goals and objectives, if we have any.

I am just a normal guy going thru the phase in my life. I thought going for holidays are able to freshen things up and get back my drive but unfortunately, I got more questions then answers.

Spent a month lost in the wilderness, headless and mindless. I screamed silently in my heart about the life I'm living and asked God "where should I be going?", "what have you plan for me?". I cringed at my own mediocre life and thinking there's so much more to achieve and accomplished.

Well, there's always choices to make. Thou the life differs from individual but all of us are given choices on how to live our live.

The question is - "What's Stopping You?"

Get a rough plan in mind and start walking. See where the road leads you for you cannot predict how it will turn out to be. One thing's for sure, life will not go according to your plan.
So have a rough idea and a goal or objective in mind and let's go! We might make detour but always keep the goal in sight like the light at the end of the tunnel.

After all this feel good crap that I've written, well, one thing's for sure.
I'm back and it's one hell of a good feeling to be back to face the world,

heads up, wind in my face, what the hell, let's go!!!

Songs that perk me up!

Following up on the Sony Ericsson commercial, there are songs that accompany you on your way, thru your journey. Songs that bring reminiscence to the good o' days or periods that you wish to forget. Some songs that really perks you up and there are some which is truly inspirational. Since I've made up my mind to sleep everyday before 12mn, I shall keep this short while leaving the songs that accompany me thru my growing up years some other time.

Heartbreaking / inspirational :
Luna Sea - Up to You

If you read about my previous post on my breakup, you'll know how sad it is. However, other then being a heartbreaking song, it is also truly inspirational. A song that I never fails to listen almost everyweek. A song that brings you down so low that you know the only way to go is up.

Perk me up / running song / inspirational :
Cold Play - Fix You

Another truly inspirational song that never fails to make me go that last mile, especially the guitar rift at the end. It gives me the feeling of everthing doesn't matters anymore, you'll feel that you've broken free from the chains that binds you down. A truly wind in my face song.

okay, time's running up, I'll continue to my top ten list soon. Gonna be cinderella, 12mn coming up, got to go zzz if not I'll be sluggish for a brand new day.

PS: The album covers above belong to the respective bands and recordings studio, hence are copyright.

I luv Sony Ericsson's advertisment !!!

I just luv the advertisment for 880i and the For the love of music advertisment.

For the "Love of Music" advert, it really expresses how I feel with a mp3 player, thou not necessary with a Sony phone, to accompany me thru my daily chores and work. There are times when nothing matters and you just wanted some space and time on your own or times when loneliness overwhelms you, you realised that music is a good company indeed. The advertisment hits spot on in touching the inner feelings and nerves of those who have been thru the period.

For the 880i advert, it shows a couple having a fast food meal at a park bench while the music's lyrics:

"want you to know you make me happy
want you to know you make me sad

want you to know you make me happy

you are the best thing that I ever had"

played in the background. something so simple yet so profound in a relationship.

The music for the 880i advert is by Freelance Hellriser titled " Want You to Know" while for the "Love of Music" advert is by Holiday for strings titled "Jump on Foot".

Once in a while, a advertisement comes and touches your heart and to me, these two sure do.

And by the way, I bought a Sony Ericsson 880i for myself and a 810i for my mom before we left for HongKong :) You can say the adverts do play a little part in swaying me and of course, the design is a big plus too.

keep it up Sony and create advertisment like those to make my day!

What If ???

After drinking tea with my dad at Ya Kun this evening, we went to Popular Bookstore and I happened to chance upon a book "Humoresque" by Catherine Lim. Saw a prose titled or decribes about "What If". It just sets me thinking.

What if I'm given a chance to relive my life again, would I do anything different?

No.

The path that I chose then was "best" option that I could have taken given the situation that I was in. Hindsight is just but a feedback which enables a person to gain experience and perspective. Hopefully makes a person wiser.

However, the more pressing "What If" question is about now, the present. Given the chance to right things that were presumably wrong or to carve out a future. With so many paths to choose, what will you choose? Subconsciously, the "What If" question will pop out asking what if you choose path B instead?

There are times that I felt something is wrong with the world and I felt so out of place. However, with the world functioning smoothly daily, I can only conclude it is me that is wrong to begin with. Maybe it's my job that causes so many questions about what if or maybe it's my life. Something just don't fit and I just can't put my finger on it.

I was chilling out, soaking myself in the bathtub in the middle of the night in the hotel room in Macau. There, I felt so strange. Not with the surroundings but just that I felt I don't fit in with the mainstream. I felt the urge to let everything go and just retreat to a corner of the world. I felt like travelling and walking until I can find a place to fit in.

Should I quit my job?

With the certainty of a stable and well paying paycheck, it's hard to say no but the fact that I'm asking myself time and time again speaks about something, i just don't fit in. I know that if I stayed on, I would have asked myself this question again and again. I would have regretted.

What's holding me back?

I'm hitting 30 and with no valuable experience to contribute to the society, it would be hard to command the same paycheck. Would I be satisfy with a smaller paycheck and most important of all, would I regret leaving my job which leads me again to the previous para. Would I regret leaving my job or will I regret not leaving?

Life is much more simplier if only I don't think too much.

If I choose to be a robot and just heck care. Everyday, go to work and wait for the montly paycheck, life will be so simple and... meaningless. That will be the mediocre life or a normal lifestyle of a Singaporean.

Work - get married - work - raise kids - work - retire and die.

I think I just don't like my job and it's causing so much problems.

If that's the case, what would I want to do?

Resign and face a uncertain future with the wind in my face, heads up to the world.

Stay on, complained and get depressed about my life.

Somehow, the more I write, the clearer the picture becomes. I've written a few post on it, harping about my life and I realised that if I don't do something about it, the "What If" will turn into regrets.

I just got to focus on the Plan A and Plan B.

Remember the date: 30th May 2009.

Back fr yearly hongkong trip 07 - day 1

like i said in my previous post, i've made a mistake of going to hongkong during this week. initially, i thought of saving some of my annual leave by going during this labour day period but little did i know, china's may day is a one weeklong public holiday. the hotel that i stayed in increased their prices by 80sgd per night. so inorder to cut costs, i book a triple bed room and bunk in with my parents. if i booked a room separately, it'll cost an additional 320 for two nights.

usually, i stayed in YMCA salisbury as their family bedroom comes with a bedroom and a sofa bed in the living room. coupled with a seaview makes it one of the most valued for money hotel. last yr, it was fully booked so i stayed in the crappy guangdong hotel. this yr, salisbury's prices is was too much for my budget [400+++] so i stayed in prudential hotel which is just right on top of jordan mtr. not a bad choice i might say as it's quite convenient. anyway, the room is quite spacious by hongkong standard with triple beds.

the thing about travelling is that i've always pack the night before which will take quite a while as i planned what to wear daily etc. this trip is no different despite going for so many holidays. well, i spent the whole friday stoning at home, playing games and others except packing... when i started doing so, it was 1130pm. after a unfocus packing which includes surfing the net etc. i finished at 4am. damn, it took me 4hrs+ to pack my stuff and best of all, 4am is the time that i should be waking up to get myself ready for the airport. needless to say, i'll be stoning the rest of the day with my mom too who didn't sleep. well, what a way to begin the day for a holiday :)


Day 1

the first thing that we never fail to do is to drop by this wanton mee shop in tsim tsa tsui to have our wanton fix once we have settled down. we found it by chance while looking to feed our stomach 3 yrs ago, since then, we've have been going back there whenever we go hongkong.

this yr's intinerary's different from the previous years since we have gone to most of the touristy places of interest, we just go where our fancy took us. we revisited the dessert shop located in the steep slope near the central midlevel escalator in the antique st and had our red and green bean soup. we then happen to walk past the "famous" egg tart shop called Tai Cheong Bakery and surprisingly since there's no queue, we just pop in and grab 3 tarts. still remember in 05 when it reopened, the queue was darn damn long. well, it's the first time we tried the tarts. the crust is soft and the eggs filling tasted watery. it's too much hype and no substance. what the uncle said in 05 while we're eating the red bean soup was true. you can get better tasting tarts then tai cheong's elsewhere and s'pore's red star restuarant's tarts taste much better.

we then proceed to shun tak building to book our accomodating in macau. damn again, the hotel rates went up due to the forecasted flooding of chinese tourist to the chinese sin city. we paid 170sgd a night with extra bed last yr and it cost 310 a night now which is nearly 82% increase.

after paying a heartpained 3080hk to the cashier, we left for wanchai to the tai yuen st. frankly speaking, i dunno why we went there but since it's along the way to causeway bay and there's toy shop, why not. daddy got himself a pair of slippers for 25hkd as his birkenstock is causing him abrasions to the pinkie toe. me? i bought a newly released gundam 0034 for 499hkd, had a hunch that it'll be cheaper than in s'pore. we then walk to causeway bay and i finally found the oriental plaza 188 = more toys!!! couldn't find the place for the last 2 trips as the location giving is off the mark. was so happy as i thought i could get some macross for myself. well ended up, the place mostly sells console games, handphones and japanese adult dvds... only one shop carries macross and the retail price is only slightly cheaper compared to singapore. was abit disappointed but nevertheless unlocked a kint in the knot and satisfied my curiosity.

we then carry on walking to causeway bay and we passby this lane on the way to times plaza. it's called lantern st just off the main wanchai rd while searching for something to fill our hungry stomach after a day of walking. along the way, we saw this super duper long queue in this street filled with restuarants and small makan shops. we then check it out [forgot to take picture] and see what's so goody about this shop but it stretches round the bend and ends at a ... ... ... bus stop. damn so misleading. we finally decided on this shop with a guy cooking claypot rice outside his shop, smells damn nice. however, we ended up ordering dishes instead of clay pot. we had, salad 排骨 [aka 排骨王 with mayonise], 苦瓜排骨 with black bean sauce, kangkong and salted fish with chicken. it comes with free soup and best of all, all tasted damn damn good. the thing about hongkong is that their soup is always heavenly, even soups served by the small shops which you can only get in restuarants here.

after a sumptious meal, we then proceed to times square to jalan jalan. talking about shopping, the clothes are not that cheap compared to singapore thou their variety might be more than ours. we walk around and then to jardine cresent and to sogo before heading back to hotel for a good night sleep. really stoning by now due to the lack of sleep...

Lessons learned fr the yearly Hongkong trip

came back fr my yearly family hong kong trip and this yr, we went to macau again. more on the trip later.

i think for the past hk trips and this too, i've always made the mistakes of going there when there's a mega event or it's the china's wk long public holiday. wat's the mistakes you might asked? well, it's the peak period and hotel rates can really increase by lots, at least 50% or sometimes, 100%. secondly, i've always never change enough cash so i got to make to do with the lousy rates there which is cheaper by 0.3-0.5 off the rates fr singapore. it might mean little but for every sing dollar, you lose 40hk cents = sgd 8 cents for a differential rate of 0.4. so if you changed 500sgd, you'll lose 40sgd. time and time again, i've made the same two mistakes.

so if you're going to hong kong, not only you have to time your schedule not to clash with your work, arrange the date that everybody's free, you still have to check whether china is having public holidays, whether hk have a mega event or convention that will put a squeeze on the hotel rooms. that way, you can save bundles if you're staying longer days. remember to change enough cash and swipe the rest by card. the rates are slightly better than the money changer.

Faith

I was getting some stationeries in Popular bookstore when i chance upon this notebook that comes in different headings like "Love", "Peace", "Joy", "Hope" and "Faith". i was looking thru when i saw the quotes in the beginning of each of the notebook and i like the one in "Faith" most.

"Faith is believing in what you not yet see and the reward is seeing what you believe in"

something like that, can't remember the exact phrase.
I think it kind of sums ups what faith means.
to me, faith is the reason why God doesn't appear cause if your faith is strong, He doesn't have to.



anyway, wanted to buy the notebook but it comes in only one colour = Purple
that's so gay and girly...
hmmm, wonder why do others comes in black while only "Faith" comes in purple.

coffee in hanoi

just came back from my hanoi holiday. one thing for sure, i've never drink so much coffee in a day my whole life. we walk to all places and drop by at cafes along the way to drink coffee. more of hanoi and my thoughts on hanoi later...

i'm hook on vietnamese coffee.

it's like a progression from local kopi to latte to viet coffee with milk to viet black coffee to taste the favour of the beans. i started drinking coffee when starbucks and coffee bean and tea leaves invaded our country. started with the fraps or ice blended then switched to hot coffees like cuppa and latte. after too much fraps, i find it too sweet for my liking so when i switch to hot coffees, i cut down on the sugar till the extend that i don't add any when drinking latte or any other starbucks hot coffee. maybe i'm paranoid of myself getting diabetes :) somehow, after drinking hot bev, i don't drink cold fraps anymore. from starbucks, i progress to kopitiams. out goes the softdrinks and in comes the hot beverages. now, every sunday morning, i'll goes to the yakun at my place for coffee and breakfast.

back to the topic:
the thing with viet coffee with milk is that it is sweet and it's a understatement. it's damn freaking sweet to be precise. it's more like 1/3 condensed milk and 2/3 coffee. thou it's sweet, it taste damn good. i try not to stir the bottom of the cup to suit my liking. the more i drink, the more i like the taste. after numerous cups of milk coffee, i decided to give viet black coffee a try to satisfiy my curiosity. damn, it was then without adding sugar that i taste the full aroma of the beans. now that i think of it, i really miss the small cafe by the road along phan dinh phung st. can't remember the name but i'll always remember that it's the cafe that brought me to a higher level of coffee appreciation @-) it was not too bland or watery and after the bitterness of the coffee comes the sweetness and that is what brought me to coffee heaven!

it's like eating dark chocolates or those at least 70% cocoa. it's bitter but once you past that stage, you can actually taste the sweetness. i think it's like beer too but i can never taste the sweetness in that :)

haha, i think now i'm into the different types of coffee beans which give me the different favours and the sweetness. wah, up level liao :) like drinking wine, once you've past the cabernet or sauvigon, you'll start to dwell on the smell, taste, colour and the region of the wine.

by the way, i bought a kilo of chon coffee beans from the old quaters in hanoi at sgd12 a kg. the thing about chon beans is that it's literally weasel shit. yah, shit from weasel... the farmers feed the weasel with coffee beans and the weasel's stomach are not able to digest the beans so it comes out as poopoo. why the shit taste so good? well, the stomach acid makes the beans more acidic and that gives it a special aroma eh, i mean the coffee not the shit aroma. after cleaning / roasting process, it becomes chon coffee beans. if you love coffee and when you're in vietnam, you should get it. in hanoi, it's at the milk powder st in old quaters.

damn, i need a caffeine fix now.

The cycle of drive

Have you lost the passion in your work?
Have you lost the original purpose of working?
Where are the dreams and ideals?
Has cynicism tame you and hope deserted you?
Do you feel like running away from it all and escape from reality?

The last 2 wks, i just lost my drive...
It's like forever running without an finishing line and i just got tired along the way.

Sometimes i wonder how does people last so long in their job. Have they given up hope and resign to fate or is it an responsibility to their family that they just continue on and dreams? what dreams they say.

The last 2 wks, i just put down whatever i'm doing and stoned.
lazing around the house and wasting my time away watching cable when i usually spend it on my japanese revision and books. i just don't feel like doing anything at all. deep in my mind, i know that i shouldn't be doing it but i just don't have the drive. I even felt guilty and wondering what the hell am i doing.

i realised that i will sometimes go thru cycles of drive like this. i get depressed and burn out. I just sink to the rock bottom and pity at my own mediocre life and the inability to translate into action.

when i do hit rock bottom, the only way to go is up. there's just no any lower that i can sink to. then i just find my strength back again and face the world chin up, wind in my face. with every cycle passed, i become a little bit stronger as the hole sinks deeper.

Mar 22nd was the 2nd yr death anniversary of my brother in law. thou we're not that close, i still miss him because of the kids. whenever i look at my nephew and niece, it'll reminds me that they could have so much more with the father around. i think to myself, if it happens to me, do i have the strength to face the world like they are doing ? my family is so tightknitted that they've become like my children and like a father, there's so much i will do for my child and that is why i always felt so sad. seeing them without the dad.

in times like this, i realised that i have an additional responsibility, to make the best of out my life so that i could make the best out of them. just like when my nephew was still a 2yr old, standing by the door waving me goodbye as i left for work. the world's problems seem to fade away and nothing else matters.

and in times like this, all the struggles that i'm currently going thru seem inconsequential.

Air Ticket to Hanoi - Tiger Airways vs SQ

hmmm, i was checking out the prices for air tics to hanoi for a short trip in Apr so i check out a few airlines. first stop was to MISA Travels, the website that i always get my airtics from as i've always planned my own itinerary and do everything online. the shop is located at Fook Hai Building next to Chinatown Point Complex. anyway, i've check out the prices from the site and compared to budget airlines. this is how it goes...

if you book your tics thru budget airlines aka tiger airways etc, you would realise that if you get your tics more than 1 month before your departure date, the tics will be very cheap but as the dates draws nearer or less than a month, that's when it gets ridiculous.

i've checkout tiger airways' prices in late feb and it's online website quotes me $330 incl of taxes per pax. it's 'reasonable' considering the fact that there are not many airlines that flies to hanoi. however, i saw from MISA that Vietnam airlines cost only $210 excl taxes but the price is valid till end Mar but i'm departing in Apr so i decided to take my chances and wait for the new fares from Vietairs. finally today, the prices is out and thank goodness, there's no change to the prices so i'm taking Vietnam Airlines which departs from terminal 1 and it only cost $350 incl taxes.

Being curious, i decided to check out Tigerairways for the latest price as it's now less than a month to my departure date on the 5th Apr. To my dismay, shock etc. i'm utterly disgusted to find out the Tigerairs is now charging $498.48 to fly to Hanoi. THAT'S FREAKING CLOSE TO $500!!! and it's to hanoi!!! not even hong kong or taipei for goodness sake.

now, Tigerairways being a subsidiary of Singapore Airways, i decided to check out the prices of the parent company. by the way, SQ flies to hanoi instead of silkair. hmmm, MISA online quotes $375 excl taxes for 2 to travel and $293 for 4 to travel. If you adds up the taxes about $110, flying by the world class SQ to hanoi is ONLY $485 and $403 respectively!!!

u pay less, u get to fly SQ, u get to depart and enjoy the facilities from terminal 2, there's a aerobridge linking to the plane instead of the budget terminal where u got to walk and climb stairs to the plane. if you're picky, the check in counter issues you a computer printed boarding pass instead of the handwritten ones and best of all, u got inflight meals and entertainment compared to the miserable budget airlines. eh, air stewardness's better??? [that's debatable :) ]

ah, that's ridiculous! i mean when they set the prices, don't they ever think before hand? if it's comparable or more expensive than full fares airlines then why the hell it's call budget airlines? aren't they supposed to be cheaper even though it's less than a month before departure? well, i've not even started comparing with Vietnam Airs... yet.

fulfilling my destiny

how quickly the months have past and we're coming to the end of Feb. I've spent my Chinese New Year at home pondering where do I go from here. Am I willing to spent the rest of my life working till 55 to collect my CPF? Am I willing to spent my life doing what everybody is doing? Or is there an alternative? Is there something else that I can do other than being in my current job? Something that pays much less or mostly uncertain but it's my interest and where my passion lies. Do I follow my heart and strive or will I be afraid of the uncertainties and choose a stable life? What are my priorities and responsibilities?

My buddies have told me that I should stay in my job as it pays well and the job scope is inproportional to the pay :) but it's hard to trudge along when there's no passion nor pride.

Thinking through my whole life, it has always been uncertain and off the mainstream. Life's challenging but it has always been safe with the blessing of God. I do not walk the same path as most people do and along the way, I've learned so much more. The more I think of it, the more I'm convinced that i should quit my job and pursue my dreams.

The road will be long and the journey will be tough
Tomorrow's uncertain and friends might think i'm nuts
Doubts seem to overwhelm and nobody stands by me
May God guide me to my future and thru faith,
I'll fulfill my destiny


Plan B - 31st May 2009

Plan C - 31st Dec 2010

A request from a long lost friend

A long lost friend had "requested" or rather demanded that i write a blog tonight to glorify, curry-favour, idolize, exalt, rave, laud, flatter, venerate, revere, eulogize, extol her. being a gentlemen and she, a dominatrix, i gladly accepted, less i'm being bombarded by "civilised" vulgarities or suffer worse fate than that.

This is what i weaned off from her non-functionable blog site:
I don't use this blog. Account created to post comments. How lame. So yes, get outta here wun you, prick.

How unladylike... and how unbecoming of a lass like her... and that post is being polite. imagine...
hmmm, wonder if she's gonna be left on the shelf awaiting expiry date :)

How strange life can be. i was looking thru my blog site after writing yesterday's post and i just realised that i have 6 comments to moderate. best of all, they were all from last year, may till sept period. damn, blogger din notify me to check the comments and i din bother.

So here i am calling her after she left her number in one of the comments... half a year later :)
if my memories din fail me, i last met her in year 2001 and we met up with one of our common friend that she "dislike"... hahaha, at our friend's house's lobby. hey, i think you have forgotten but it's okay :) somehow, after that, we lost contact with each other until now. hey, how strange fate brings one person to another.

well, i've asked her how she got to know my blog as this is my nonsensical, unsubstantiated, nobody-bothers-to-read, idiotic and no brainer posting based on my whims and fancy or whatever that tickles my thoughts posting. somehow, she anyhow click and link to my blog or so she claimed. hmmm, like that also can ah, suure oor not, dun bluff okay?

talking to you sounds like we never lost contact wif each other for >5yrs. you are still as crappy and unladylike aka tomboy. once i read your blog, i know it's you. hahaha, no horses run :) well, good friends are hard to find especially someone who knows me since the whirla days.

let me sincerely wish you a Happy Valentine's day and Happy Chinese New Year, may you stay blubbly as always, mentally and physically, and may the year of the Pig, [how fitting] brings you good health and fortune.

cheers!

The funeral before CNY

There are times when you needed some form of meaning in your daily life or when you needed a fresh perspective in life. God has a way to remind us the fragility of life.

And one of them is death.

One of my colleague died in an motorbike accident this morning. I have not known him well except for a few occasions when I met him while at work. Since i've been posted to other department, we have not chatted so i can't claim that he's my friend other than being colleague. It was quite a shocker as he didn't turn up for an important event today. Numerous calls were unanswered and parents said that he had left for work. It was only later that the hospital called. My whole company felt the lost as will those who used to be in the line too. He's not the only people that i know past away in a bike accident. I've had a secondary sch fren who died in the early 20s and i sincerely hope it will be the last. I pray to God to take care of him in heaven and shelter his family.

Do we really need a misfortune, an illness or death to remind us the preciousness of life or more so Today?

As we lament the haves and the haves-not, grumbling about the unfairness to God, shouldn't we grateful that we have Today to right the wrongs, to live our dreams?

Suddenly, it gives me zest in life again, to make use of the precious time to do things that i wanted to. The death of my brother-in-law gave me that too but somehow, i lost it among the rumbles in my daily trudging and struggling. It serves as an wake up call to make me realise about life's uncertainty and learn to treasure what i have. I hope it won't be lost again and i pray that i do not need another death to remind me.

The future's uncertain and yesterday's past. Today is a gift from God and that's why it called "Present"