another day

it's been awhile...
i'm now single and the feeling's a bit weird after having a companion for 4yrs where we do all things together and now alot of things are done alone. there's alot of movies i didn't watch cause it's weird watching alone and it's hard to express joy or sadness to your parents cause of the generation gap. well, i guess i'll get used to it.

somehow i see things differently now. i felt a sense of calmness or have i mistaken it for denial or lost hope? i somehow get bored with the daily routine and wanted to do something else. i wanted to quit my job and move on but i know that it's just a fantasy. i need the dough. hmmm... what a dilemma... i can't derived any joy from my job and it's getting to be a chore even though it pays good and work load is non existent. somehow, i still wanted to do something else... what would it be? i got no idea but just wanted to get outta here. i wanted to travel and live in obscurity.

i'm tired, just tired...