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This is one of my all time favourite band.
i guess you all will know from the number of post that contains the lyrics of this songs
It's quite ironic how i got hook onto this band...

i still remember that i was buying some cds from music junction, causeway point in the late 90s. was it 99 or 98? the sales assistant was playing the song from the album 'Never Sold Out' and the tune 'Up to You' caught my ear. thou i can't understand what they were singing then but the rythem and the music somehow express my emotion, all those pent up frustration. i was hook onto the song and i bought the album immediately without saying and this started my lifelong affinity with band.

from the album, i progress to their earlier works and later than i realised that they're gonna break up soon in the year 2000. i was sad cause i really wanted to catch them live in action and if i need to fly to japan, i'll definitely do so.

the band have accompanied me thru my ups and downs, my army life when the going was tough, my struggles, aspirations and of course, my daily travel. after six years, i'm still in love wif the song 'up to you'.

if you don't help yourself, dun blame others

another day, another month, another incident of terrorist bombing

well, just like the movie 'v for vendetta' says "you can't kill an idea"

 

let me tell you the irony. the terrorist likes the advance of technology but does not wants the price that comes with it. they want to drive the americans out of middle east and be holy again. they want to clamp up but yet enjoying the riches that technology provides.

 

the muslims can't blame other people for casting an suspicious eye on them for many of the terrorist are unfortunately comes for that particular religion. Let me tell you an analogy. If you always read that brand "A" TV always gives you problems, of course you'll shun brand "A". now the company of brand "A" says that it's not fair to lump their TVs and other products that they produce as problematic but as consumers, the trust in brand "A" is lost and you can't blame us for it, as time and time again, the brand "A" TV keeps appearing in the news. Yet they keep blaming others for stereotyping them and treats them unfairly. if they dun want to be brave and stand up to be accounted for, they can't blame other people. I think it's easier to blame others than to be brave isn't it. Nobody wants to be blasphemy against God. when some 'scholars' interpret the holy book to their interpretations, how does normal people stand up to be counted?

 

believing in substance is more important than the form. the problem is, when you get not so clever or partisan fellas to be scholars, you'll get monkeys leading the bunch. if you get a hawkish scholar, all the things he interpret will be hawkish and aggressive. the interpretation, instead of being true to the book will be twisted to suit his thinking. this have always been the problem in religion. when power lies in a hand of a chosen few, it gets abused if there's no counter balance. these will always cropped up when interpretation is done by man for we're not perfect.

 

as long as there's islamic countries that believe that israel have to be destroyed, there will be no peace. it's that simple. the reason is that the jews will not be homeless again. the million lessons they have learned in the holocast is that without a country to call it's own, their fate is not in their hands and lives depend on the whims and fancy of the leader of that country and millions have died...

 

I pity lebanon and the palestinians. they're like pawns in the middle east politics. both are used to suppress israel to the extend of being detrimental to their own development. the palestinians just slap themselves in the face but there's no choice isn't it? the PLO is corrupted and they are sicked of it. thought that hamas might bring them better life but the first thing when they are elected, they want to wipe out israel... just when life is getting better though still shitty, it gets worse. lebanon even worse, one week before the war, life is normal but when the iranians back hizbollah decides to join in the fray, the whole country is bomb to pieces. while all these are happening, the mastermind are laughing away. all blame americans and israel for the mess but who started it in the first place? in the arena of politics, to kill one is to murder but when thousands are dead, it's just statistics. have syria and iran ever thought about the lives of fellow brothers in lebanon and palestinians? to them, their death are justified to satisfy the greater aim. how cheap their lifes are and how insignificant. generations of children destroyed. future? what future?

 

the europeans, they like to think that they are world players and superpowers but infact they are pussies hiding behind the lions back. they just know how to talk or rather use 'diplomacy' but people are taking them for a fool. their economy is in tatters, they can't sustain a full fledge war and neither do they have the balls to put their words into actions. i think by the time they finished talking, the iranians already have their own nuclear bomb.

 

the irony of humans, despite our neverending quest for knowledge, how much have we actually learn?

 

 

 

 

Rollercoaster Ride

Nowadays, it's work work work and more work...
with the coming NDP, I got to work this sat, eve and actual day...
my body clock's all screw up. there are times like on tuesday when i was so damn tired that i slept for 14hrs straight... 10pm to next day wednesday 12noon and i slept some more in the afternoon from 2-6pm and guess what... i can't freaking sleep at night... arrrggg... i only went to bed at 3am and got to wake for work at 7am so the whole bloody cycle starts all over again...

it's been i think 2-3 months since we parted... it's good to be single again. i'm now revebrating with so much energy now and with so much time in my hands that other than spent working, i'm dreaming of things that i long to do. i shall enroll in a electric guitar course. take up skydiving next yr and go get my tooth fix with a braces. with the insane amount of practice and memorising that i got to do for my nihongo aka jap language. it's getting wonderful...

hmmm, the 1st and the 2nd paragraph don't seems to gel yah, one minute complaining of work and the other seems like i got so much time to spare.... yah man, it's a rollercoaster ride and i'm gonna live it to the fullest once again.

like Luna Sea says in Shine:

Nani wo shinjiteiru ka nante Sonna koto mondai ja nai
Shiraketeru kono machi wo SUPIIDO de furikitte
*What is it that you believe in?
What we're facing doesn't have to be a problem
Let's just accelerate and break free of this depressing place

Ima kimi ga kanjiteru Sono omoi dake ni kakete
Azayaka na IMEEJI toori Sou kimi no omoi toori ni
*What is it that you're feeling now?
Just gamble on that feeling, nothing else
Just as you would a clear image
Just go on with what you're feeling

Moeagaru taiyou wa Dare no moto nimo noboru kara
Nagasugiru asu wo matsu yori Ima toki wo kakenukero
*That burning sun rises before everyone
Instead of waiting so goddamn long for tomorrow,
Let's just run through time now

Kimi wa ikiru imi sagasu kedo
Kagayaite kara demo osokunai
Kimi wa ai no imi sagasu kedo
Sou mayowazu ni dakishimete Your Mind
*You search for the meaning of life,
There'll be time to do that later...go on and shine
You search for the meaning of love
But don't hesitate to embrace what's in your mind

Yume wo mite itai no sa Akirametari sezu ni
Dekiru dake no koto wo Toki ga tarinai hodo sa
*I want to dream And never give up on what I dream
I have no time To be doing only things I can do

Yume wo mite irareta nara Tokidoki wa kowareyou
Kono mune ni kizanda Kono netsu wa sameyashinai
*If all I could do is dream I'd break them now and then
It's engraved in this heart of mine This fever will never go down

Kimi wa ikiru imi sagasu kedo
Kagayaite kara demo osoku wa nai
Kimi wa ai no imi sagasu kedo
Mou mayowazu ni dakishimete Your Mind
Ima ijou subete ga kagayakeba ii ne
*You search for the meaning of life,
There'll be time to do that later...go on and shine
You search for the meaning of love
But don't hesitate to embrace what's in your mind
From here on, you should just let everything shine!

Nani wo shinjiteiru ka nante Sonna koto mondai ja nai
Shiraketeru kono machi wo SUPIIDO de furikitte
*What is it that you believe in?
What we're facing doesn't have to be a problem
Let's just accelerate and break free of this depressing place

Ima kimi ga kanjiteru Sono omoi dake ni kakete
Azayaka na IMEEJI toori Sou kimi no omoi toori ni
*What is it that you're feeling now?
Just gamble on that feeling, nothing else
Just as you would a clear image
Just go on with what you're feeling

Moeagaru taiyou wa Dare no moto nimo noboru kara
Nagasugiru asu wo matsu yori Ima toki wo kakenukero
*That burning sun rises before everyone
Instead of waiting so goddamn long for tomorrow,
Let's just run through time now