Death of a relative

my brother in law passed away yesterday afternoon. the news came as a shock when my mom called to inform me at night. thou we know that the chances of surviving the cancer is quite slim but the doc says that he still got 6 months.

it all began during last yr when he had abdominal pains. it got to the state when he needs painkillers to pull through the days. there are times when he had diarrhea throughout the night but he still muster up strength to carry on working the next day.

he was still fine when i saw him during the chinese new year when we had our reunion dinner together on the eve. still remember that night where my dad plays a few rounds of mahjong togerther. during a wkend at my place, we were discussing about his abdominal pains and we suggested that he go for a check up. he did a xray on his chest at i think is SATA at jurong but the doctor gives him a clean bill of health. he then proceed to NUH for a endoscopy and a liver scan, he was then told to wait for 2 wks for his scan. we're aghast that thou he's physically in pain, he still got to wait 2 wks. what the fuck is wrong with them? luckily, my sis's churchmate's bro's a dept head at TTSH so he managed to ward my bro-in-law. they found a lump outside his liver but do not know the source of the cancer so more test have to be done. he was told to rest for a wk and during the school holidays, my daddy brought them to bukup, malaysia. somehow, i had a premonition that this will be the last outing that they gonna enjoy as a family together. on the 3rd night, he developed extreme pain and was rushed back to s'pore. the churchmates waited at woodlands checkpoint to sent him to TTSH. Later, he was dignosed with lung cancer that had spread to the liver.

We visited him last friday, he was tired and the senses were numbed due to the morphine to curb the pain. i still remember getting him a cuppacino from polar cafe. i know he's strong mentally cause he got two young kids to live for. deep down, i wondered, how does he takes it, for a person that works hard to provide for the family, this must be a shock to him. why him? why not the freaking unemployed fat elder brother who din even visited him saying that he's busy working. how to busy can you be when you're a security guard? that fucker only visited his mom on the night before she died after numerous persuasion by his siblings. how ungrateful and unfilial can a person be? god damn you.

my sis throughout the ordeal, have remained strong. for the kids and thru faith in God. whenever she's worried or feeling sad, she reads the bible for strength and may this strength carries her through this period of uncertainy and may god bless the kids.


Frankie, we miss you and God will take care of you in heavens above. don't worry about the kids, ah mun will do a good job and we'll ensure they're provided for.