fulfilling my destiny

how quickly the months have past and we're coming to the end of Feb. I've spent my Chinese New Year at home pondering where do I go from here. Am I willing to spent the rest of my life working till 55 to collect my CPF? Am I willing to spent my life doing what everybody is doing? Or is there an alternative? Is there something else that I can do other than being in my current job? Something that pays much less or mostly uncertain but it's my interest and where my passion lies. Do I follow my heart and strive or will I be afraid of the uncertainties and choose a stable life? What are my priorities and responsibilities?

My buddies have told me that I should stay in my job as it pays well and the job scope is inproportional to the pay :) but it's hard to trudge along when there's no passion nor pride.

Thinking through my whole life, it has always been uncertain and off the mainstream. Life's challenging but it has always been safe with the blessing of God. I do not walk the same path as most people do and along the way, I've learned so much more. The more I think of it, the more I'm convinced that i should quit my job and pursue my dreams.

The road will be long and the journey will be tough
Tomorrow's uncertain and friends might think i'm nuts
Doubts seem to overwhelm and nobody stands by me
May God guide me to my future and thru faith,
I'll fulfill my destiny


Plan B - 31st May 2009

Plan C - 31st Dec 2010

A request from a long lost friend

A long lost friend had "requested" or rather demanded that i write a blog tonight to glorify, curry-favour, idolize, exalt, rave, laud, flatter, venerate, revere, eulogize, extol her. being a gentlemen and she, a dominatrix, i gladly accepted, less i'm being bombarded by "civilised" vulgarities or suffer worse fate than that.

This is what i weaned off from her non-functionable blog site:
I don't use this blog. Account created to post comments. How lame. So yes, get outta here wun you, prick.

How unladylike... and how unbecoming of a lass like her... and that post is being polite. imagine...
hmmm, wonder if she's gonna be left on the shelf awaiting expiry date :)

How strange life can be. i was looking thru my blog site after writing yesterday's post and i just realised that i have 6 comments to moderate. best of all, they were all from last year, may till sept period. damn, blogger din notify me to check the comments and i din bother.

So here i am calling her after she left her number in one of the comments... half a year later :)
if my memories din fail me, i last met her in year 2001 and we met up with one of our common friend that she "dislike"... hahaha, at our friend's house's lobby. hey, i think you have forgotten but it's okay :) somehow, after that, we lost contact with each other until now. hey, how strange fate brings one person to another.

well, i've asked her how she got to know my blog as this is my nonsensical, unsubstantiated, nobody-bothers-to-read, idiotic and no brainer posting based on my whims and fancy or whatever that tickles my thoughts posting. somehow, she anyhow click and link to my blog or so she claimed. hmmm, like that also can ah, suure oor not, dun bluff okay?

talking to you sounds like we never lost contact wif each other for >5yrs. you are still as crappy and unladylike aka tomboy. once i read your blog, i know it's you. hahaha, no horses run :) well, good friends are hard to find especially someone who knows me since the whirla days.

let me sincerely wish you a Happy Valentine's day and Happy Chinese New Year, may you stay blubbly as always, mentally and physically, and may the year of the Pig, [how fitting] brings you good health and fortune.

cheers!

The funeral before CNY

There are times when you needed some form of meaning in your daily life or when you needed a fresh perspective in life. God has a way to remind us the fragility of life.

And one of them is death.

One of my colleague died in an motorbike accident this morning. I have not known him well except for a few occasions when I met him while at work. Since i've been posted to other department, we have not chatted so i can't claim that he's my friend other than being colleague. It was quite a shocker as he didn't turn up for an important event today. Numerous calls were unanswered and parents said that he had left for work. It was only later that the hospital called. My whole company felt the lost as will those who used to be in the line too. He's not the only people that i know past away in a bike accident. I've had a secondary sch fren who died in the early 20s and i sincerely hope it will be the last. I pray to God to take care of him in heaven and shelter his family.

Do we really need a misfortune, an illness or death to remind us the preciousness of life or more so Today?

As we lament the haves and the haves-not, grumbling about the unfairness to God, shouldn't we grateful that we have Today to right the wrongs, to live our dreams?

Suddenly, it gives me zest in life again, to make use of the precious time to do things that i wanted to. The death of my brother-in-law gave me that too but somehow, i lost it among the rumbles in my daily trudging and struggling. It serves as an wake up call to make me realise about life's uncertainty and learn to treasure what i have. I hope it won't be lost again and i pray that i do not need another death to remind me.

The future's uncertain and yesterday's past. Today is a gift from God and that's why it called "Present"