the aftermath - part II

the thing is, why is the title 'the aftermath - part II' ? where is part I then? well here it goes, i was typing part I 2 wks after good friday. when i finish the blog and publish it, guess what??? the freaking website hanged... despite my numerous refreshes, still no use. so the freaking hour that i spent typing the blog was gone in 60 seconds. god damn it...

now i've lost the feeling and the surge of emotion. it was suppose to be a summary of events that happens after the funeral but i guess i'll try...

during the 3 days at the singapore casket, my sis was maintaining a very strong front when everybody seems to pity or sympathise her. not once did i saw her tear, such was the faith she had in god. i was quite pissed with frankie's brothers for complaining and not contributing to the funeral. i mean, even entertaining the guests was done by the church friends who basically help my sis managed the whole affair from booking and paying the downpayment of the room to the arrangments of rites and booking of a place at mandai. even before that, the encouragement and numerous visits to the hospital by them to cheer frankie up showed their sincerity thru actions. the brothers says they have to work, well, seems like they are the only ones working. what matters is the sincerity, if a person's not, they'll come up with lots of excuses isn't it?

every night after the last visitor at around 12 midnight, we'll close the room as nobody is watching over the coffin. what pisses me off is that as my sis have to watch over the two young kids, nobody else is staying overnight. i mean, as brothers, is work or sleep so important??? more important than the death of the own brother? if my sis have a choice, she would have stayed thru the night if not for the kids.

anyway, on the third day which is good friday, we left for mandai crematorium. as the place is new i think, it's quite impressive. even the crematory is fully automated. after we performed the last rites, we watched as the coffin is automatically reeled in to be cremated. as this moment, we can't help but cry our hearts out. it's like the dam broke and water just gush out...

we were then lead out to the ' cool down atrium' where we tried to gain back our composure. just then, reality sets in and we know that he's gone...

after the reservoir's dried up and we then proceed to northpoint to have lunch at sakura. it's time to get our life back together again...